Before and After

This blog is about breasts. Small ones, and large ones. Real ones, and fake ones. But more than that, it's a documentary about perceptions and feelings of inadequacy. And confidence, too.

jennavievexx asked: somebody anonymously recommended your blog to me, i just got my boobs done 2 days ago :)

Wow, thank you. Hope your recovery is going well!!

First day of swim season!

Also, it’s been 6-months post-op. Thinking of updating with a photo. What are your questions?

Anonymous asked: This is wonderful that you document such a personal event with such grace and confidence. I've considered implants, and realize you aren't here for "consultations" but would you describe a bit what made you select saline over silicone? Also, and I hope this isn't too personal... do they feel similar to natural breasts, and move naturally? I've heard they feel like everything from "gummy bears" to "bags of water", to "sacks of wet cement". It's a bit daunting to hear things like that.

They do not feel like “bags of water,” or “sacks of wet cement.” I don’t think they move as freely as natural. In that, I think they move more as a whole. Hard to explain, but maybe I’ll make an animated GIF sometime.

If someone were to ask me during a face to face conversation, I’d say they feel amazing. They feel as real as I could have ever imagined. When I was nursing, my breasts were often hard from engorgement, a little stiff from a good milk production and saggy and empty towards the end of nursing when my production was much lower. So to me, they feel real and great and I want to touch them all day and have my husband touch, grab, kiss, lick, and play with them all day. Oh, I definitely love my boobs. As far as why I chose silicone, I think my surgeon put it perfectly: silicone is the gold standard for implants—they feel more real, they won’t ripple like saline, and I can’t remember what else he said about them…

madylimnims asked: Your breasts look beautiful, and so do you..love this whole blog, process, and intention statement...you are an inspiration to me in a lot of ways. Not necessarily encouraging me to get implants, but proof that smart, amazing women like you exist. Thank you for sharing your experience!

This has got to be one of the sweetest comments ever, and one that makes the last ten perv questions worth it all. Thanks for reading!

The scars will continue to heal and the recovery is about as complete as it can be, for documentary purposes. From here on out, if not the last few photos, have been more showy than documentary, and I’m not sure that this can stay relevant to the original idea without turning the Missus into a show, and that’s clearly not going to happen.
So, there you have it—boobs. Small ones and big ones and real ones and fake ones.  We’ll still monitor incoming questions and maybe occasionally post an update, but I’m not sure there’s anything left to cover.

The scars will continue to heal and the recovery is about as complete as it can be, for documentary purposes. From here on out, if not the last few photos, have been more showy than documentary, and I’m not sure that this can stay relevant to the original idea without turning the Missus into a show, and that’s clearly not going to happen.

So, there you have it—boobs. Small ones and big ones and real ones and fake ones.  We’ll still monitor incoming questions and maybe occasionally post an update, but I’m not sure there’s anything left to cover.

tesorabella asked: I am 19 years old, haven't breast fed or been pregnant. I have had larger boobs naturally but they melted away literally. After I took birth control twice and they were massive D's, they never went back to being how they were before. Sort of flopping and have stretch marks. Though I'm 19, do you think that's ok to get implants? I am almost 20 and age isn't really factor to. I just feel super hideous all the time in everything I own "/ especially living in beach city, literally.. :(((

“tesorabella,

I am in no way a substitution for sound advice from your doctors. If you have read through a lot of my other questions and my experience, I am sure you know what my personal opinion is. But, each situation is different and each persons reasons will seem as real to them as mine were to me. I respect this, because I know how I felt.

I don’t quite understand what caused your breasts to be large and suddenly disappear, unless you lost a lot of weight, or what taking birth control twice has to do with this, but I think you need to ask yourself whether corrective surgery at this time in your life will make you happy. Here are some questions to consider:

  • What do you want to get out of implants?
  • Knowing that your body is still going to change until you are at least 25 and again when/if you have children, will you be able to afford another surgery?
  • Do you have the funds to pay for it now? It is not, in my opinion, a good idea to finance; they’re boobs, not a house.
  • Do you want to have children, whether you breast feed them or not?
  • Will getting implants make you truly happy?

If you really don’t think it is something you should do now, my suggestion is to take a look at your clothes. Only wear clothes that accentuate the parts of your body you do love. This will not only help you feel more confident, it will allow you to love yourself for who you are now. I believe that when the time is right, you will have a greater appreciation and love for your body when you do get implants (if you ever do). On a personal note, if I had learned more about fashion prior to my decision, I may not have gotten them. I love them. But there are other parts of my body that I love too, I was just a terrible dresser and needed to lose the rest of my baby weight-which I am now (finally) in the process of doing.

Anyway, sorry for the long answer. It’s just that each situation really is so different, and there are lots of things to consider, especially because you (and your body) are still young. Augmentation is a serious surgery. And in the beginning it is very emotional because it really isn’t what you envision. Good luck in your decision.”


Hi, Mister Photographer here. Breasts are not the only things guys are interested in. In fact, I loved my wife’s small rack, but it was her butt that I liked most.  :)

travelfan01 asked: Just wanted to let you know that u look beautiful!

“Thank you! My husband thinks so, too :)”

ashleeta asked: They look great! They're settling to nicely!!!!!!

“Thanks! I think they have settled wonderfully and I couldn’t be happier.”

The nightly routine…

The nightly routine…